Life 2.0: For Crying Out Loud

PublisertTorsdag, 17. juli 2014 - 12:15-OppdatertOnsdag, 23. juli 2014 - 13:08
Chronicle #23. Before acting school, I couldn’t even remember the last time I cried.

I admit that I was an emotional person (part of the reason I wanted to become an actor) – but throughout my adolescence, the strategy was to be tough and keep any emotions in.

For this reason, I always wondered if I would ever be able to perform those dramatic scenes where people cry their eyes out for losing their parents or girlfriend or whatever tragedy is occurring in the script. How is it possible to start crying whenever someone turns on the camera and says “action”? Well, this week I did that almost every day.

Every time, it makes me feel a little bit more like a baby – naked, very small and powerless. Where did that strong, masculine image I spent so much time on building go (if there ever was any)? People used to tell me I was cold and cynical, and I guess that’s what you become when you find it safer not to feel.

Now, I was a wet puddle on the floor in several classes – and I’m not even ashamed of it, because that’s what acting school is all about; opening up and letting it out. That is what people pay their dollars to see.

The biggest lesson I’ve learned about acting so far, is that it is really all about not acting. It is about proving to yourself that you actually experience whatever our character is going through – so you do not have to pretend. This Tuesday I experienced that my mom and dad died in an accident, so I had to confirm their dead bodies at the police station.

The day after, I came home to my drunk dad beating up my mum, and the day after I met a person that I can no longer meet. Little did I know that my imagination was so effective – but most of us end up crying like babies in middle of class, struggling to get back to reality (while my parents are still fully alive, enjoying their summer holiday eating ice cream with my sisters in Denmark).

«In betweeneth thy crying, one must maneth up and goeth to work», as Shakespeare might have said once. The downside of being lucky to get cast in multiple projects is that it also equals multiplied homework.

Though flirting with a young lady at a restaurant all Saturday barely qualifies as «work» – the hard truth remains that homework is not being done while I’m pretending to wait tables and sweating out my 3 piece suit in 100 F. While I’m drying up my tears between classes, papers are to be written, scripts are piling up on my floor – and the time I have off, is spent on set.

The good thing about intense weeks filled with emotional stress and work, is that the final release never feels better. Suddenly, I found myself having a couple of beers by the pool with my bro’s, then playing beer pong at a party and finally dancing like I didn’t know what homework was.

Whether it’s an incentive to work more or party more will be up to the readers, but my take on it will be that a part of working hard for something you want – is to sometimes let it go.

Life 2.0 is one of Khrono’s blogs, and will be presented with new blogposts every week. Petter Egge is a former student from HiOA and journalist at Khrono.no. He has decided to do something quite different. This is his stories.

July 9th 2014:
Chronicle #22: The Week of Independence

While I was already on that wave from last Sunday, I started this week with some hours in the gymnastics gym.

The whole chronicle #22 here.

July 2th 2014:
Chronicle #21: The Upswing

This week started with a Q and A session with casting director Chris Devane, which might be described as a rather tough start.

The whole chronicle #21 here.

June 17th 2014:
Chronicle #20: The Circle of Life

Ok, this is a hard one, folks. So please bear with me. This week, I circled halfway around the earth to catch the circle of life at its closure.

The whole chronicle #20 here.

June 10th 2014:
Chronicle #19: Back to business

Life 2.0 - the chronicles of an emerging actor facing Hollywood: After a really nice visitor, the company has left and Petter Egge is feeling a different kind of alone.

The whole chronicle #19 here.

June 3th 2014:
Chronicle #18: The Life of the Party

After one week off from school Khronos blogger Petter Egge is heading for semester two at the New York Film Academy in Hollywood.

The whole chronicle #18 here.

May 20th 2014:
Chronicle #17: The Life of the Party

This week, I got a whole new understanding of the fact that I now live and breathe the LA-life.

The whole chronicle #17 here.

May 15th 2014:
Chronicle #16: The Leap From Sanity 

After San Francisco, the way back to reality was just a little too short. From a weekend in heaven, I hit the ground in a pile of papers to write, finals coming up, and most of all – our final showcase at the Victory Theatre.

The whole chronicle #16 here.

May 8th 2014:
Chronicle #15: The Escape 

This week I thought I was up for an easy ride. Not many film projects in sight, and a long–awaited trip to my favorite city San Francisco – where I left my soul when leaving UC Berkeley two years ago.

The whole chronicle #15 here.

April 29th 2014:
Chronicle #14: The Aftermath

No journalists called me this week, and my phone has slowly managed to find peace; now it is only buzzing about twice as much as before Ellen (yes, there will forever be a «before» and «after Ellen» now). The number of followers on Instagram has eventually stabilized, and though my twitter profile is more busy with visitors and followers than ever before, the threat of an explosion seems to cease.

The whole chronicle #14 here.

April 23th 2014:
Chronicle #13: The Tribute


Out of his good heart Petter helped a person on the street, and suddenly life turned around for a couple of days. When this week started, I was at the bottom of a deep valley, weighed down under a number of concerns. The ones about my economy had already bothered me for months, as frequent readers would already know, but now my worries included another area of much bigger importance.

The whole chronicle #13 here.

April 16th 2014:
Chronicle #12: When words do not suffice

There are times, even for a writer
when written words become empty signs
Times when a writer don’t want to write
cause there’s too much between the lines

The whole poem-blog here.

April 9th 2014: 
Chronicle #11: «
The School of Life»

Life is a funny little thing. It is for sure a trembling rollercoaster, but also a splash of water in your face and missing ground under your feet. It has its ways – mysterious, inscrutable – of surprising me, not just when I thought I had it all together, but even more often when I’m already out of balance.

The whole chronicle #11 here.

April 2th 2014: 
Chronicle #10: «
The Decennium»

From waking up scared of an earthquake, to not take notice at all. So: I’m happy to announce that I might already be a real Californian.

The whole chronicle #10 here.

Mars 25th 2014: 
Chronicle #9: «The Wake Up Call
»

They say you’re not a real Californian until you no longer notice the earthquakes. This week started with something of a wake up call. As mentioned in previous posts, sleep is quite limited for me over here due to lack of time. That one night when I finally managed to enter deeply into those psychedelic lands of dreams at the right time, with no alarm set for the next morning – THE EARTH decided to shake me out of bed at 6:25 AM with a 4.4 magnitude earthquake.

The whole chronicle #9 here.

Mars 18th 2014: 
Chronicle #8: «So You Think You Can Act
»

Do you know how to walk? No, you don’t. Can you sit, crawl, or lie down? No, you can’t.  You can’t even lift your arm up in front of you. I know you can’t believe it – neither could I. But every day here, I am proven wrong.

The whole chronicle #8 here.

Mars 11th 2014: 
Chronicle #7: «The walk of Shame
»

Ever had the feeling that your duties seem to pass by like a super fast train and you just can’t catch up with it for the life of you?

The whole chronicle #7 here.

Mars 4th 2014: 
Chronicle #6: «Teaser»

I was a journalist, a gymnast and a musician. I had everything I needed – except what I wanted. Thats why I decided to quit my job, say goodbye to my friends and family, and leave for acting school in Hollywood. The Video presented in this blog is a small taste of what life has been like the first few weeks.

Here you can see the video-blog.

Feb. 25th 2014: 
Chronicle #5: «In a cold sweat
»

For a guy who has lived all his life by the rules and routines of a gymnastics regime, there is no doubt that life here is a tad more divergent. Having nothing to do at one moment is just as shockingly unfamiliar as it is to run from a film shoot to my roommates’ baptism in the next. At any point earlier in my life, the degree of variation stretched from sleeping, through eating and practice, to toilet visits, school and back to sleep. The circle of life has definitely taken a new shape.

The whole chronicle #5 here.

Feb. 18th 2014: 
Chronicle #4: «The Proposal and the V
alentine’s»

Real life, as we will know it the next eight months (though dreamy it may still seem to me), is about to blossom. As the hassle of settling down slowly dies out, challenges of school is coming to life, growing over the heads of its students.

The whole chronicle #4 here.

Feb. 11th 2014: 
Chronicle #3: «
Life’s a like a box of chocolate»

As we still can’t seem to get friendly with our apartment (at least our rent), it took my roommate and me no more than three days to decide to move out again. Already stretching our comfort zone with one bedroom, we are now downgrading to NO bedroom.

The whole chronicle #3 here.

Feb. 8th 2014: 
Chronicle #2: 
Move-in Day and monologues

When gas, water, power and insurance companies got back in to business on Monday morning, Murphy’s law did the same; what could go wrong – well, you know. For the landlord to let us move in, they needed confirmation letters faxed from all of the above – which should be no problem, since we asked them all to do so when opening our new accounts. After half a day of waiting by an empty fax machine, we dared to call them back with a friendly reminder – only to discover that they’d forgotten all about us. When they eventually faxed it, only one name was on the paper – and we’d really prefer that both of us could move in. 

The whole chronicle #2 here.

Feb. 5th 2014: 
Chronicle #1: 
«I need a dollar, dollar is what I need»

Ok, just to make it clear right away: I am NOT a blogger. Since the dawn of the blogosphere, my prejudices have kept me far away from its kind. But as we all know, the first unwritten rule of a struggling actor in Hollywood is that «Everyone must accept some kind of prostitution in order to survive up until the big breakthrough.» So, I could have fulfilled the stereotype of waiting tables between my auditions, or I could do a «Sylvester Stallone» – but instead I am now spreading trivialities about my still-to-be famous self. Oh, the irony.

The whole chronicle #1 here.

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